“Hell yea I’m a good catch…lol…But I’d at least like to have some control of whose arms I fall in to…”-SueZette, April 2, 2004 July 15, 2007

**Now playing in my atmosphere…”Nothing Like Your Touch”-Vikter Duplaix**

 

Part 1…Bras and Drawas…

I feel like boobookitty…pure d shit! Booo hoo hooo…I’m sick.  Needless to say my Saturday has been very quiet…not necessarily by choice. 

If you could see me now…you’d be looking at a borderline hot mess..a mushed multi-colored afro…linty black t-shirt hiding a cheetah colored bra and some white drawas…sitting on the portion of my couch not covered with clothing…semi-indian style….reading my old blog and mining for new music on iTunes.  Ok did I say borderline…lets try…certified hot mess.  My mother would be embarrassed to know that I just shared that with yall.

 

Ah well…speaking of my mother…she has decided that I get my reclusive…moody ways from her.  I guess I can live with that…I don’t look like her, but damnit…at least I can kinda sorta act like her…lol.  She laughed when I said that. 

 

**Now playing in my atmosphere…”Lonely, Lonely”-Feist**

 

So did I mention I’ve been roaming around my old blog.  I kinda miss her…we had some good times….I’m glad I didn’t delete her…so many memories in one place…man.  It’s interesting to see how I’ve changed…my thoughts….my feelings.  It’s also funny seeing the things that haven’t…check this snippet from February 2004 out….

Anyway…Sunday was special
I spent over 4 hours on the phone with a special person
And I’m like this…
Damn this isn’t the place to talk about it
The point is…
Dreads, Mr. Morning, The Latin Connection, and Drumline…they are all passing crazes
But the depth of feeling that I felt after that convo….
I’m like yo…
It just sent a shiver down my spine
I don’t think anyone realizes how serious it is
A 3 year old shiver that hibernates and wakes back up when I can bear to feel it
A shiver that hasn’t left me
May never leave me
This is kinda juvenile
I want to send him a yes, no, maybe so note and pre-check that shit
I would give him my heart on a platter
No questions asked
My one request is that he treats it with the same tenderness that he treats the world
He knows my name but not my intention
Or maybe he does
Oblivion is such a cloudy place to live in
Maybe I’ll regret posting this when I’m done
And I’ll come back and edit it
Take some out…leave some in
I’m too old for a crush
Childlike emotion
Reserved for a movie star
or Reggie Goodwin…the boy who said I’d been his girlfriend since the 3rd grade but didn’t have the courage to tell me until the 5th
I’d rather have him as friend that not to have him at all….HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY…EVERYDAY IS THE 14th

 

See what I’m saying…lol.  Same script…same cast…

This random entry is dedicated to quotes that I love from entries past…..won’t you join me on my journey down memory lane…

 

August 25, 2004:

“There is something magnificent about freedom.

Once you emancipate your mind from the shackles that others create for you

Creating your own memories…living your own dreams…

Just being

Can be such a beautiful thing

From this last year

I have learned so much about myself

So much about other people…” 

Also from August 25, 2004 :

“Anyway…

I don’t like rejection

In the same way I don’t like commitment

Soooooo

If he doesn’t like me…rejection

If we hit it off romantically…commitment

Do we see the double-edge sword swinging…”

 

September 4, 2004:

“I’m a poetress….

Yep…

A sista that fornicates with words in order to birth ideas…knowledge…and maybe even life”

November 26, 2003:

“I’ve had a song in my head for awhile today…

I always have music in my head

Music brings me peace

When the rest of the world is loud and chaotic

I put on some music to soothe my soul…”

 

I’ll have to do this again real soon….