…Sent from my heart, I mean my H-U-R-T…-from “Love Letter” by Kevin Michael November 20, 2007

**Now playing in my atmosphere…”Like You’ll Never See Me Again”**

 

Part 1…Here I Stand…

 

I’ve had beef with my blog yo.

That’s why I’ve been avoiding this joint like a plague.

For me..writing is admitting.

As long I don’t write…it remains a thought or a feeling…

Abstract.

Writing gives me clarity…too much clarity sometimes..

And it hurts a lot…admitting hurts…

And so I’ve been avoiding my blog to spare myself…

 

Damn…it’s been a minute.

So much…too much…has happened.

I don’t even kind of have a clue of where to start.

 

I bought a house…

which I love.

 

I had a fling…

which turned out to be THE BEST SEX OF MY ENTIRE FREAKIN LIFE….

yes indeed!

 

and

 

I told Number One…

two months ago…that I never want to speak to him again…

via text message…and haven’t heard from him since.

And I’m feeling really hollow about it for some reason.

 I’m waiting to get to the point where it’s a distant memory, but for now it’s a current ache.

 

Yeah I’m not ready to talk about that just yet…

gimme a sec.